The trial and other stuff....

[singerinthedark]

So, yesterday the man driving one of the cars in the accident that Matt ran into plead "not guilty" to the charges against him. Apparently his laywer told the judge that he would plead guilty only if the judge could promise that he wouldn't serve any jail time. Of course, the judge couldn't promise that, so the preliminary trial is set for June 8th.

I was kinda hoping that this didn't go to trial. I was kinda hoping that I wouldn't have to deal with the drama of this aspect of losing Matt. I guess I was kinda wrong.

On the bright side of things, I'm feeling much better than I was a few days ago. I'm a little flustered with all the trial stuff, but overall my mood has improved. However, I reserve the right to remain moody for at least a few more months while I deal with all of this. I'm on emotional overload. (Can you blame me?)

Despite all of this, I am starting to feel ready to get my life on track. It's time to stop grieving for the loss and start healing through the grief. Moreover, while I still have people I need to love and support, I need to start taking some serious ME time so that I can get myself back into alignment - body, mind, and soul. There are some huge things on the horizon for me (not that I know what they are specifically). I need to be ready to face them head-on. I'm definately not balanced right now, and one more huge thing could send me over the edge. So, it's definately time to adjust.

Comments

So much,

[temperance14.livejournal.com]

So much I want to say. I've seen this post this morning, and had all damn day to think of what to say to you.

Moody? Not quite the right description. You are trying to pull yourself and your life back together...and yes, the pieces are going to fall off occasionally.

Let them. We'll help, as best we can. Hopefully, you can be patient with us. We may mistep in our judgement of what to do, when to speak or just listen. We will try not to make the edges rougher than they are.

This is not the exact 'magic words' I wanted to give you. But I couldn't go to sleep, without passing on my thoughts for you. I haven't known you long--but I can tell you that your long time friends love, worry and care for you. And they want to shelter and support you--but goddess, they worry about how to do it without bruising the wounds that are trying to heal.

They love you so dearly.

Re: So much,

[battymaiden.livejournal.com]

Thanks... I appriciate the support more than I can say.

Re: So much,

[vidihawk.livejournal.com]

Wow... I couldn't have possibly put it any better. Teryn, I'd like you to know I feel exactly the same way.